Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

Let whoever reads this blog be careful of his/ her tongue. If anyone does not know what is going on, haha... Then, be discreet. If this entry caused anyone to so-called stumbled, I apologise.


Soon, I will be thrown away, shaft aside, pushed to another.

We always wonder how stumbling it is to blog down such inner thoughts.

Today, I blog down my apprehension.

What I thought God promised me, now I see that it is further and further away to be realised. I am totally at lost. Never been so lost, not even when before I recieved Christ.

God... I have so much to tell You... I have so much to pour out to You... Yea... I shouldn't be so inward-looking or be so emotional. These are words coming from man! You know it full well my entire being, inside out. You know me through and through. You will surely judge even my deepest secrets of my heart... So I am not ashamed to come clean before You, as always. I am not ashamed to tell You how I feel...

God... I have so much to tell You... I just don't know how... But You know... You know... Yea... Everyone has his/ her own issues... Nevertheless, God, I... I wanna be in Your perfect plan... Please help me to walk in Your ways... Walk in Your ways...

You saved me from myself, and now I am Yours. You know my desires. I wanna focus on You! I wanna let Your will be done! But... see... Haha...

Sorry, God... I failed so many times... Yea... Grace... Grace... I think I'm more and more knitted with grace... I just want to play music for You to let the world draw near to You... Ah God! How can it be... I.. I..

Still waiting...
My heart is fainting more and more.

Grace, yes, I know very well.