Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

Every morning, I wake up ,like around 4.30am to wash up, and then spend my most importatnt time of my day: QT.

When everyone is still on bed, sleeping like a log, I would be seated at my bed 13, facing the window, looking at the sky above the building. I thank God for letting me be at the last platoon of the company, the last section, and the last bed where I would be on the highest level, right at the corner. There I can always have quiestness and solitude during the QT. I can't read any book since it's lights off (when lights on, everyone's awake already), so I fully enjoy the privilege to pray with my eyes wide open.

I would talk about anything... I would think about some people. I would plan a little bit (since RO is tight everyday; RO is routine order, an army term for timetable). I would reflect on my decisions and ask for supplications... Most imporatantly, I would just rest in His presence and peace.

Like many, I am still growing and learning in maturity. Like many, I have been so foolish and may do even more stupid mistakes consciously or not. Still, like many, I enjoy the privilege of grace. In camp, several events made me wonder about what is being blameless. There's a few times I had a minor conflict with a bunkmate who always "pick on me"... Argh...

There's this time I was accused of being 1 of the men who were pinpointed for some SBO thingy which can lead to the punishment of guard duty during confinement. I didn't handle the situation the best way I knew how. I apologised later. What is being blameless. How to be blameless?

Hee... Believe me, after being a christian for so long, I am still trying to figure out what is being examplary and blameless in this world. Blameless.... WWJD? That's it! Blameless, this will be my study for this entire coming week... Lord, Help me to understand and live in Your ways. I wanna live. Yes.

Blameless...