Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

Morning! Woke up like 9am plus... Packed my stuff for book in tonight. Just left that Jockey cap to settle... Ironed it, starched it... Hope it can stand... Why my head so small?!!!

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O well.... God, I pray a prayer that I'll always be joyful and secure in You. I am wholly Yours. By faith, even if the whole world falls, I'll stand. I'll stand because of Your grace and Your love upholds the righteous!

Lemme just enjoy every single moment, in camp, out of camp, with my friends, with my family, alone in person, united in spirit with my siblings-in-Christ... I thank You, my King!

Now that I've expressed myself... I am more and more clear... Since certain doors are closed in my life now, I'll go where the doors are open (don't have much choices). And there, I'll still be fervent for the work of the gospel. It's time for me to be more active in sharing the gospel already... Salt and light... salt and light... Availability...




Since Tertiary is not the place for me to teach guitar or exhibit my use (in what I always want), then, I'll go to where I can still share my experience and influence the grace and power of God in my life. (Like Paul's rejected by the jews about the gospel, so he went to focus on the gentiels) So, I'll focus on the East, even though I am nowhere in particular group in Hope.

No, let me clarify. I am not against TP. But my situation is just unique now. My name is under TP. I am in NS now. I am no leader, just a member by title. My availability and TP history forbids me to mentor anyone in TP. It is such "reasons", which I cannot comprehend, that Nel forbids me to be a musician on stage for service. Yet, my desire to teach, learn, and perform, only increases as time goes.

Therefore, since there is a need in East and that I see that I can play my part of training up guitarists for their CG and draw people to God through music, I think it's good to take in students and to know them deeper. Yes.

I never thought I am a pro. God has dealt with my humility and pride, security and faith these 2 years of "lost direction". Now, I am no longer concern of what I cannot control. I learnt to seek God first in all I do, especially now in NS.

I only wish to extend what I am enjoying in.

My longest wait is the wait I am waiting now...

Some people has touched my life so heartfully, I don;t know if they know... God must have a great plan for us. A great plan... My longest wait... I am still waiting...

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Sweet.