Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

Thank you Raymond.
Raymond is my current shepherd. In my hucrh, a shepherd is a spiritual mentor.

I'll take it as God has answered my prayer to send people to aid me and like what Apinun told me last night on msn, that He'll not let me be alone for too long. Thanks, Lord.

Raymond called me to clarify somethings. Since my blog is currently unseen-able, I shall blog down a short "episode".

I won't hide. I will be honest and truthful.

There are ladies whom I am attracted to. After all, I am wired as a male.
=.=

But it seems that part of because of me, I have caused some gossips around. I'm talking about Katherine. Tsk. What the... Never imagine I'ld have such gossips flying around me. Motive. Shall stay my distance.

I'll be honest and truthful. I am close to several ladies in church. I have a history of shepherd and sheep relationship with Sharlene last time. I intitated to know Ariel while I was in BMT; Jane Joy was keeping account of us all these while. In a sense, I am no longer "haunting" her her. Haha.. As for Katherine, I think I owe her an apology, 'cos I "got too close". Not a good experience. Tsk.

Yes, I experience every man's battle too. Man, shoud account to God first and settle with Him, before settling with his fellow men.

Accountability

Yes, because of this, I am thinking: should I shy away?

I make my stand. No platoonic friendship. But I still longs for deep growing friendship, rooted in Go's pure love, His unconditional love!

Lord, take hold of me.

I know I am sinful and failed so many times!

Even I am disgusted of my carnality.

But, I know You're perfectly faithful.

And more importantly,

You love me more than myself.

Yes, You even know me,

Know me more than myself.

For that, I'll transform.

To turn from believing to trusting.

I trust in You.

By Your grace, I choose to follow You.

Save me from myself.

Saved me from myself.

Saving me from myself.

Saved.

Safe.

It's never about me.

It's not about me.

It's all about You.

It's always about us.

Not just the 2 of us.

But all of us.

I love You, Jesus...

-prays-