Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

"I seriouslydo not feel encouraged after the talk."

Drag...

SIP on-campus training today. Missed yesterday night's CG. Ritchie talked with me after service. How unfruitful and meaningless.

How meaningless to try and know the depth of a person from the blog and not from the person. How foolish I was when I tried to do that.

Noticed the 2 mosquitoe bites on my left feet. Dengue fever is hot nowadays... Headache now. Will I get? Whatever... Ha!

Gotta be ready for medical checkup and also to collect information for my SIP report... Yea...

Oh ya, now, I am starting to doubt if my time will come... O Lord, show me Your way... Sustain me and make me ready. There is none like You, and only You can satisfy me! Oh boy oh boy, I am so dejected in spirit and desponded by ungrowth! Talk about being misunderstood and lacking chance... When chance come, will I be ready?

Had celebration for JonLee's birthday and farewell for JingQi. Abel came to join us for 3rd service today too... I'm surprised.

Oh Jesus, I wanna be deeper in love with You. I wanna know You more.. I wanna live for You. Oh Saviour, come and be my Lord once more! Come and do a surgery in my heart again so that I may be excited for You again. Oh how I need Your touch. I just wanna see through Your eyes and follow Your direction! I just wanna have a lil' more desire to desire You, to hunger and thirst for Your truth! I just wanna be with You...

Only with You, can I find rest and peace. I only trust You... May Your plan work forcefully and powerfully through me in all I am made to be used! Jesus... So awesome... Fill me with faitha nd courage... Fill me with Your Spirit and change me from inside out... I long to dwell with You forever!

I fixed my eyes on Your back. Then I find I yearn to see Your face. So let me hear Your voice and and show me Your face, for Your face is lovely and Your voice is sweet. Oh how I liken You, my darling... Please take me away with You and let us hurry... You're like the stars in procession, fair as the moon, bright as the sun. You are majestic in all wonder and no one can compare to Your glory! How I gaze upon Your beauty forever, my Lover. Just let me say, "I love You."