Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

One of pathetic issues in a so-called family is one that lacks real communications.

Isn't communication one of the key breaking point of divorces in the world?

I really enjoy this song "Your Heart Will Lead You Home" by Kenny Loggins. Jane Joy sent me this disney song some time before. Now, I'm really enjoying it.

Packed. A word came to my mind: "escapism".

My God will use me powerfully; I just know it.

Jaded.

Have you ever felt like a screw before? Take the blues away. Some mechanisms seem loose in me. When I'm tired and disheartened, I keep really quiet. And now it's me to be quiet. No longer like speaking too much. When I speak, I don't know... Hmm... O well...

When was the last time you make someone else laugh? When was the last time you calm another soul? When was the last time you kana scolded or criticised? When was the last time someone is really encouraged? When was the last time you sincerely humble yourself? When was the last time...

Don't like the "adults" label... Some adults are just a bigger form of immature kids playing more sophisticated toys. Some of these people are us? In church, in workplace, amongst your peers...

A story of a man lingers in my mind now. A man has a family. In his life, he tried to be a great man. He tried to change the whole world; it failed. Then he tried to change his community; it failed. He tried to change his family; it failed. Finally, he tried to change himself, and it succeeded! But by the time he had his first ever true success, he's near the grave-time. It is also at this time that he spoke his life-time lesson: If in the first place, I had started by changing myself (which is most within his own control and reach), I would have been able to change my family, then my community, then the world...

I wonder... God... readers... why can one know so much, but yet not live like that? Is it because the heart is not yet converted? "Conversion is a process"... Haha... Shar told me that maybe one day my life experience will be a powerful living testimony to many. I really don't see how now... Sux. See, everyone's a sinner... lolx.

People need the Lord.

I need the Lord.

Do you?

If God is real, He's real no matter how you feel.