Feels Like It's Time to Dream Again

When everything seems to be 2nd best to me, is it still the best You have for me?

I do not have the fancy flair for business, but it seems like I'm guided for this thingy.. I found my interest in music and guitar, but time seems to play hide-and-seek with me all these while. I have chosen to guard against any BGR, but I have to keep reminding myself. I do not enjoy succeeding alone, but it seems like I am often positioned in solo places..

The feeling of being nowhere is 1 of the worst 1 I ever know. The cruelty of rational thinking is many a times so irrational. I know I am a child of God and that I belong to heaven with an eternal family, by grace. Still, isn't it just as real to experience what a normal human faces?

What I do not want to do, I keep on doing; what I want to do, I keep on forgeting. When I overcome, praise God! When I fail again, the net of grace catches me. What I do not delight in, they keep coming at me; what I like always slip through my fingers.

All I want in this life is to go through everything with You. If it is a bonus, let me play music for You dynamically, just as You would for me. If it is a bonus, let me have the courage and strength to be joyful in all circumstances. Yes You can, let me never be alone but have true friends by my side.

All I want is to be more like You. The moulding and refining is tough, but I really really really really yearn to touch You. I want to feel the way I felt last time. I want hear Your voice and see Your face. I wanna touch You, just like when You touched me the very 1st time. O how I long to rekindle this feel. It must be more than a feeling or a tingle on the skin. I sense it; it must be You. It must be more than a gush of wind. You are here; You are with us. Now, let me live for you. When You love me, I'll love others. Now I love You, 'cos You love me.

You love me.

I love You.

Do you know He loves you?

Do you know I love you?

I really really love you.

iluvu